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I live in a world without magic or miracles A place where there are no clairvoyants or shapeshifters no angels or superhuman boys to save you A place where people die and music disintegrates and things suck I am pressed so hard against the earth by the weight of reality that some days I wonder how I am still able to lift my feet to walkFormer piano prodigy Nastya Kashnikov wants two things to get through high school without anyone learning about her past and to make the boy who took everything from her—her identity her spirit her will to live—payJosh Bennett’s story is no secret every person he loves has been taken from his life until at seventeen years old there is no one left Now all he wants is be left alone and people allow it because when your name is synonymous with death everyone tends to give you your space Everyone except Nastya the mysterious new girl at school who starts showing up and won’t go away until she’s insinuated herself into every aspect of his life But the he gets to know her the of an enigma she becomes As their relationship intensifies and the unanswered uestions begin to pile up he starts to wonder if he will ever learn the secrets she’s been hiding—or if he even wants to The Sea of Tranuility is a rich intense and brilliantly imagined story about a lonely boy an emotionally fragile girl and the miracle of second chances


10 thoughts on “The Sea of Tranuility

  1. says:

    So I ended up creating a new shelf for that book Everyone loved but meHere I am all sheepish and disappointed because I once again didn’t like a praised Goodreads book as much as I thought I would should So many good ratings for this book So many wonderful reviews so many people saying they cried over the story I didn’t I so fucking didn't It’s true what most of the reviewers say there is no insta love There is what I call NEVA LOVE Or 800 pages long and still nothing love Or how long can it go on without anything happening love Or Let me die of boredom love The pdf file I have for this book is 980 pages long I don’t know why exactly it’s this long but what I do know is that it’s a batshit insane amount of pages for a book where NOTHING happens So this is how it goes you start the book and it’s about a weird girl with a mysterious past and a guy with a tragic past Okay Literally 400 pages later really I’m not kidding you are STILL reading about a weird girl with a mysterious past and a guy who’s got a tragic past They are not together they have talked a little but that’s it She still dresses like a slut for no reason on that later he still makes stuff in his garage That’s it Like if you miss 20 or 300 pages you don’t miss anything kind of repetitive If this were a movie and you wanted to tell your friend what’s happened during the time he went to the bathroom during a very long moment like 300 pages well you could answer NOTHING view spoiler And also WTF were you doing in there? hide spoiler


  2. says:

    An infinite amount of stars Beautiful emotional powerful and unforgettable There is a reason why I love this book so much It gets better and better with every read This is easily my favorite book Period A story of strength love forgiveness healing moving on letting go and second chances Both main characters are amazing They are damaged broken and perfectly imperfect There are so many other secondary characters you will fall in love with Drew ♥ After re reading this again I was going to give it a proper review but I don’t really think it needs it The uotes speak for the book And the fact that it’s my favorite book says a lot The very ending gives me goosebumps and makes me cry happy tears It doesn’t matter what type of books you like I recommend this book all the time to everyone I know So if you haven’t read it it’s one you aren’t going to want to pass up “I live in a world without magic or miracles A place where there are no clairvoyants of shapeshifters no angels or superhuman boys to save you A place where people die and music disintegrates and things suck I am pressed so hard against the earth by the weight of reality that some days I wonder how I am still able to lift my feet and walk” “What? Sunshine fits you It's bright and warm and happy Just Like You” “Good Morning Sunshine Josh Fucking Bennett By now I'm pretty sure that if I were to find his birth certificate that is exactly what it would say “People like to say love is unconditional but it's not and even if it was unconditional it's still never free There's always an expectation attached They always want something in return Like they want you to be happy or whatever and that makes you automatically responsible for their happiness because they won't be happy unless you are I just don't want that responsibility” “When you look at her what do you feel? Joy fear frustration longing friendship anger need despair love lust?YesYes what?All of it” And maybe I'm a liar and I do need it because being kissed by Josh Bennet is kind of like being saved It's a promise and a memory of the future and a book of better stories “I wished my mother was here tonight which is stupid because it’s an impossible wish” He shrugs and turns to me drowning the smile that cracks me every time “It’s not stupid to want to see her again” “It wasn’t so much that I wanted to see her again” he says looking at me with the depth of than seventeen years in his eyes “I wanted her to see you” Every day you save me” view spoiler“You know I meant it I am human And male And not remotely blind Do you want me to say it again? You are distractingly even if that is not a real word pretty You are so pretty that I bullied Clay Whitaker into drawing me a picture of you so I could look at you when you aren't around You are so pretty that one of these days I'm going to lose a finger in my garage because I can't concentrate with you so close to me You are so pretty that I wish you weren't so I wouldn't want to hit every guy at school who looks at you especially my best friend” “I may not be allowed to love her but that doesn't mean I'll let anyone hurt her”“I’d trade my hand all over again to take back everything I did and hear him call me Sunshine” “What did you call her? she ask's but I don't think it's her real uestionSunshine I say and she smiles like she believes it's perfect and she may be the only person other than me who would think soWhat is she to you? she whispers The real uestion and I know the answer even if I don't know how to say itDrew's muffled voice rises up from the floor before I can respondFamily he saysAnd he's right”“Maybe one day you'll come back Maybe you never will and that'll suck but you can't keep doing this The blame and the self loathing and the bullshit I can't watch that It makes me hate you for hating yourself I don't want to lose you But I'd rather lose you if it means you'll be happy I think if you come back with me today you'll never be okay And I'll never be okay if you aren't I need to know that there's a way for people like us to end up okay I need to know that there even is such a thing as okay maybe even good and it's out there and we just haven't found it yet There's got to be a happier ending than this here There's got to be a better story Because we deserve one You deserve one Even if it doesn't end with you coming back to me”“I love you Sunshine and I don't give a shit whether you want me to or not” hide spoiler


  3. says:

    Book Trailer book amazed the funny right out of me but replaced it with something So much that I can't even curse properly It was so well written it hurt By the end I was bled completely dry of all thoughtall emotionI was so incredibly close to just repeating OH MY GOD WOW OH MY GOD WOW GET ME A DRINK OH MY GOD WOW over and over again for this review but it's important for me to let you know exactly how this book made me feel How it affected me How it became part of meAt first I thought it started off slow but I'm convinced now that this was for my own good I needed to put my baby toe in the water first I don't think I could have survived being thrown in I needed that time PleasePLEASE don't give up on this book You have to trust me that it's all part of the journey part of the experienceThere were times where I felt physically ill I wanted to throw up Maybe I did In my mouth Just a little bit There was even a point where I wondered why my kindle kept moving I realized that it was my shaking hands my pounding heart and my heaving chest that kept causing my kindle to have a seizureYou're probably asking yourself how could someone possibly get so emotional about a book Easy At some point between the soulful dialogue and raw emotionthis book became real The words defined romance and the characters touched my heartThere was something about the emotion of this book that was almost cleansing I felt I broke but I healed The Sea of Tranuility reminded me that books aren't just entertaining; they're than that This was than that It caused me to feel invaded my thoughts my heartit became a part of me READ ON


  4. says:

    Beautiful Powerful Deep Heart wrenching Believable Uplifting Unforgettable A must read WOW 5 stars One of my favorite reads of the year The Sea of Tranuility is a beautifully written deep and heart wrenching drama about two damaged teens surviving unchangeable tragedies and devastating grief hurt and pain; learning to cope with them accept them and somehow finding healing safety and finally happiness and love in each other along the way Its uiet and very very slow building but it just felt SO real and believable Without my even realizing it this uiet book had me worked up to the point where my heart was pounding and felt like it was being being ripped out The emotional punch took a while to build but when it hit it was huge and powerful and took my breath awayThis is not your typical romance where boy meets girl and they live happily ever after I'd call it of a character driven drama with a bit of a YA romance in it It highlights the realities horrors and imperfections of life and yes love while still having a powerfully uplifting ending My name is Nastya KashnikovI was a piano playing prodigyI was murdered two and a half years agoDiscuss Nastya is a beautiful bright seventeen year old girl struggling with having her dreams and life as she knew it shattered two years ago by a random act of violence At her new school she meets Josh a guy who just wants to build things and be left alone who everyone avoids and yet no one messes with Surrounded by worlds of pain death and self imposed isolation both of them have survived hurts no one their age should ever have been through and are both struggling with having survived and living with that pain every dayOne night out on a run Nastya ends up at Josh's house He's there in his garage that's filled with tools and wood and he's making something For the first time in a long time Nastya feels a connection of sorts with him and just sits down uietly and watches him work She keeps coming back every day and so begins their strange yet beautiful relationship When you look at her what do you feel? Joy fear frustration longing friendship anger need despair love lustYesYes what?All of it Its not romantic for a long time but rather what built between them is a sort of companionship or friendship based on mutual understanding empathy and trust as they slowly open up and confide their secrets in each other I know at that moment what he's given methe knowledge that I am accepted here He's given me a place to belong The thing I loved about Nastya was that she was fragile in some ways but absolutely tough as nails in others She wasn't helpless or frail despite a part of her soul being broken She was strong intelligent witty perceptive and although she made choices that people around her didn't understand they were her choices to make She was sad and angry dealing with a tragic act of random cruelty that took away her dreams So she copes with it in the best way she knows how by doing what feels right to her not what anyone else wanted her to do I loved that about her Eventually my body healed as much as it was going to My mind started getting put back together too I think it's just that the pieces got put back a little out of order It seems like the my body healed the fractured my mind became and there aren't enough wires and screws to fix the breaks in it With any other girl I could probably pull the classic guy fail safe of walking over and wrapping my arms around her and letting her put her head on my shoulder It's cheap but it works Drew swear by it But I'm afraid that in this particular instance it would result in one of two things a string of innovative new expletives or her knee in my balls My money's on the knee Josh was a beautiful character uiet a bit of a loner but deeply understanding caring and protective What I loved most about him was how strongly he respected her boundaries giving her a safe zone to her be herself The real her The one she feels she has to hide from the world Giving her the space and security of being able to share exactly as much or as little of herself as she wanted No judgments No uestions No obligations He knew that she areas of her that were locked up in her hurt and he never pushed her outside her comfort zone no matter how badly he wanted to know what happened to her He needs to be able to fix things and make it all better; to believe that you’re okay so that he can believe he’s okay” The book starts out uiet and somber It is slow building in every possibly way Nothing is rushed And although I loved it a part of me wished something major would happen because of how slowly the story built and the romance story lover in me wanted them to become a couple sooner their first date is at about 65% but having finished it and looking back on the pacing of the story I can understand why it was the way it was In the end the slowness contributed to how powerfully the ending hit And the ending was really really beautifulAnd by really really beautiful I mean that I read the last two words over and over again with tears in my eyes and my hand over my mouth I literally just sat there crying rereading the page letting the powerful emotional punch hit me every time And don't go flipping to the back of the book to see what those words are Seriously you'll ruin the whole book if you do and there's no getting it backThe author is an amazingly gifted brilliant storyteller The book is worth reading for the writing alone Her style is beautiful evocative poetic and deeply meaningful I'm very much looking forward to of her workIf you are looking for a hard core romance maybe wait before you pick this one up but everyone should read this book at some point in their lives It was GORGEOUS and unforgettable A must readEDIT little added note here I've been asked by some people about this This is not a story of tragedy Parts of it are sad but the tragedies happen before the book begins and it's about the characters dealing with it So don't worry all your favs characters will still be there in the end Fear notHere's how I'd cast Josh and NastyaFor of my reviews visit Aestas Book BlogAnd come join the Aestas Book Blog Facebook Page


  5. says:

    5 StarsBeautifully tragic and powerfully uplifting The Sea Of Tranuility is uite possibly one of the most beautifully written books I've read in its genre The five stars allotted for rating just don't seem to suffice Everything about this book pulled me in from the ample rave reviews decorating Goodreads to its calming title and enchanting cover yet all of this was rendered insignificant when I became captured by the artistry within The story opens with a powerful prologue igniting instant intrigue We are introduced to the horrific aftermath of Nastya's tragedy but won't learn of its details until later on as these layers uietly unfold Nastya is a girl who’s lost her identity and with it her will to live a life consisting of anything than barely existing She has survived a heart wrenching trauma that has left her a broken shell of the hopeful person she once was When the pressures of pretending to be 'okay' around her parents become too great she moves in with her aunt and reluctantly attends high school again Nastya transforms her look in hopes to deflect all attention to her provocative appearance rather than the turmoil festering within Contrary to the weaknesses Natsya carried she had a vigorous inner strength that surprised me Her witty narrative was captivating and her inner dialogue flowed as gracefully as the music she once played When Nastya meets the entrancing Josh Bennett the safe and twisted world she'd created begins to shift Josh is eually broken and lost and concealed entirely from the world around him He has suffered great loss and has been wrapped in a social bandaid of denial by the terrified people around him who ignorantly believe that what they ignore cannot existI'm utterly floored by this author's ability to move me so dramatically with words The writing was flawless and the symbolism that drenched each page was extraordinary I find it fascinating when a story can create conflicting emotions simultaneously; I was incredibly somber yet so hopeful and even happy But my favorite message this story presented was the ability to appreciate and live the life you have instead of regretting the one you don'tand of course the dream of second chances Book Stats ▪ GenreCategory New Adult▪ Romance A gradual connection Angsty but beautiful▪ Characters Damaged but redeemable Broken yet strong Excellent portrayals ▪ Plot Highly emotional and heartbreaking Mystery with a slow reveal ▪ Writing Gorgeous Symbolic and insightful ▪ POV First person Alternating dual perspectives


  6. says:

    Oh my god I just don't know what to say about this book I seriously considered leaving the rating blank because The Sea of Tranuility isn't something that can easily be summed up in stars my feelings for it are much complex than that I do realise that I'm pretty much the only person in the universe who gave this less than 4 stars and most gave it 5 and there are a number of reasons but I'll get to those in a minute But it's important to know that 3 stars isn't really accurate at all On goodreads 3 stars means I liked it and I think I can say that there were no parts of this book that fit that description I either loved it or was annoyed by it There were 5 star bits and there were 1 star bits and somehow my rating has fallen somewhere in the middleLet me tell you what I lovedThis book is brimming with emotion It's an intense painful read about two complicated individuals who are both haunted by their pasts and find some level of solace in each other There were parts that were so eually beautiful and painful that I was hanging on every word propelled along by Millay's gorgeous writing and often hilarious dialogue Nastya is easy to love from her original snarkiness that should have you laughing to the darker sides of her character that will draw you in and make you need to know her secrets And boy does she have secrets I also uite liked reading about her obsession with names and their meanings even though it was incredibly cheesy that the love interest's name Josh means salvation Cue eye rollI think one of the best bits of this novel though was Drew He was the only character who surprised me the one who was introduced as a typical lecherous jerk and developed into something much real and entirely lovable I really love it when characters turn out to be interesting than I expected them to be and Drew definitely delivered on that front Plus he is the source of some much needed comic relief in this rather dark story providing many laughs and memorable momentsButThis is a standard contemporary YA romance With standard contemporary YA romance characters who have standard contemporary YA romance angst filled issues Which I guess is absolutely fine if you find yourself returning to this genre again and again in search of the same goods you got last time In fact this novel is perfect for fans of Pushing the Limits another book I felt conflicted about they offer me some basic entertainment but they follow the same pattern and are completely predictable They use stereotypes for characters except like I said Drew they always feature issue ridden protagonists who need saving the relationships always evolve through the same cycle of doubt jealousy and general angst Oh and now attempted rape scenes seem to be a reuirement as wellEven though I did grow to like Josh towards the end I had a lot of trouble with his character to start with and I never fully recovered from it In some ways he reminded me of Ethan from Beautiful Creatures in that he saw himself and eventually Nastya too as being morally above everyone else He is critical of himself as the novel progresses but I found myself really annoyed at him for turning his nose up at the vapid cute and popular girls who flirt with guys The usual stereotypes are employed here using the blonde pretty and popular girl as an unnecessarily mean airhead She's even called pretty in an obvious way what does that even mean? And that's such a horrible bitchy comment Josh even comments on how morally superior he is to Drew by saying I don't think I'd be desperate enough to sink to Drew's level This is why I found it really hard to care about the guy Nastya of course doesn't try to hook up with all the hot guys so she is also a morally superior being in Josh's eyes For a further example see my status update top of that it's all just a little too cheesy for me at times an odd thing to say for a book that is simultaneously so dark but one thing I really can't stand in romance novels is pet names I find it gross actually And in this Josh always calls Nastya sunshine and I just do not think it's cute I know some readers will and that's great but I just ugh vomits And back to the whole saving thing Josh even gets in this line that I don't think I could physically make my vocal cords say out loud every day you save me This is obviously a matter of taste and perhaps your eyes are filling up right now when you read that If so this is the book for you but it doesn't do it for me I think it even takes something away from the very real emotion when they say something that's straight out of your standard romcom But to end on one last positive Millay writes sex scenes that are handled expertly honestly and gave me a few tugs on the old heartstrings This book ticks the boxes at both ends of the scale for me but it will definitely be your new favourite if you love contemporary romance


  7. says:

    STILL ON SALE | The Most Amount of Stars I Can Give “I love you Sunshine” I tell her before I lose my nerve “And I don’t give a shit whether you want me to or not” ThisThis right hereThis is the kind of story that makes you appreciate words Makes you appreciate when nouns and verbs and adjectives are strung together to form these magical little sentences that touch your heart and you don't even know they're doing it until you're so sucked into the story you can't put it down and 4 hours have gone by and you haven't eaten or moved or even blinked because you couldn't possibly stop And then he kisses me Tentatively at first waiting for something but there isn’t any need I would kiss him forever I will kiss him forever I know it like I know my own name That's what this book did It makes you feel it all Every word Every character Every scene Every heartbreak Every SINGLE THING “You know I meant it I am human And male And not remotely blind Do you want me to say it again? You are distractingly even if that is not a real word pretty You are so pretty that I bullied Clay Whitaker into drawing me a picture of you so I could look at you when you aren’t around You are so pretty that one of these days I’m going to lose a finger in my garage because I can’t concentrate with you so close to me You are so pretty that I wish you weren’t so I wouldn’t want to hit every guy at school who looks at you especially my best friend” I stop to catch my breath “More? I can keep going” I can keep going but even as I say all of this I know it’s not uite true She’s not just distractingly pretty She’s the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen and I want to touch her so badly right now that it’s almost impossible to keep my hands from reaching out and doing it It was captivating heartbreaking haunting romantic hypnotizing ballsy antsy broken and an all time favorite of mine The characters were probably the most realistic I have ever come across and broke my heart and put it back together again “I lied” I say even though I’m lying now “I told him you were mine”“Just so you know” she says her smile fading as her eyes lock onto mine “You didn’t lie” “When you look at her what do you feel? Joy fear frustration longing friendship anger need despair love lust?YesYes what?All of it” I reply because I'm all in now whether I like it or not I was swept away by its power and there was not one rushed moment not one wasted scene The slow build of the story just contributed to such a powerful amazing ending And it had uite possibly THE MOST AMAZING ENDING TO A STORY I HAVE EVER READ The two words it ended on? The epitome of brilliance Perfection “It’s not a good enough reason” “You are the only good reason” I wouldn’t have changed a single thing ANYONE AND EVERYONE needs to pick up this book I cannot stress enough how much I LOVED IT and what a beautiful tale about forgiveness love and second chances it was Find Me OnInstagram ❤ FB Page ❤ FB Blog ❤ Blog ❤ Twitter


  8. says:

    my review a storyi meet my mother for lunch one day whilst eating and conversing my thoughts slowly start to drift to this book which i finished reading earlier that morning mom wonders what im smiling about and i tell her i am in love she asks 'oh? how long did that take?' and i tell her only a couple of chaptersbecause its true i fell in love with this book and importantly josh so uickly so deeply i have a soft spot for broken backgrounds and those who have the strength to rise from it so i cant help but wonder if this novel was written specifically for me i would like to think so ↠ 5 stars


  9. says:

    Spoiler Free Review READ THIS BOOK NOW IT'S A MUST READ5 STARS out of 5Genre YA Romance Mature ContentNastya 'Dying isn't so bad after you've done it onceAnd I haveI'm not afraid of death anyI'm afraid of everything else'Nastya Kashinkov is a self inflicted mute at age seventeen She was once an accomplished pianist but then something happens She dies She dies a horrific brutal violent death Yes death touches her for ninety six seconds before she is brought back to life Only to come back ruined with no memory of how she got that way And then one day she remembers She remembers him And what he did Unwilling to tell a soulShe decides to runShe runs from everything and everyone she knows Her Father can't save her her mother can't save her and her brother can't save her Hell she is convinced that she can't be saved So she moves two hours away to live with her aunt Margot Now in a new town and a new school where no one knows her or the horrific thing that happened to her With hopes to graduate without anyone finding out who she really is so she can move on with her lifeThen a late night run changes everything when it leads her to Josh Bennett's garageJosh Bennett's life has been a perfect storm called DEATH that has left him a soul survivor at seventeen years old He has lost everyone his mother sister father and both grandparents When he is not in school he is in his garage building something If he is not in his garage building then he is at Home Depot getting materials so that he can build something See the patternpassion? This of course makes sense when you learn his favorite class at school is shop His love for building developed young when he was taught by his dad it was something they enjoyed to do together Josh may not be a mute but he is definitely a loner A loner that just so happens to have a best friend that is his exact opposite Drew At school Josh is given clear space What I'm saying is nobody F's with this kid Period And that's just the way he like's it SALVATIONNastya is drawn to Josh She practically pushes her way in to his life whether he wants her in it or not Love eventually blooms She starts to feel safe FinallyAnd he starts to feel terrified Because he has lost everyone he lovesThoughtsThis book was filled with unforgettable moments and lines It easily rates in my TOP TWENTY of the best books I have read in 2012 And it's in the top five percentile no doubt It has a perfect balance of mystery humor romance and intensity The use of symbolism comes at you in so many ways that your brain races to catch up to it It was used with hands notebooks clothes and names For instance hands Nastya obsessed over other peoples ability to use their natural talents with just their hands Her jealousy was potent at times because of the loss she herself experienced with her hands One of the many things that makes this book awesome is the character development The author does a very good job with allowing you to get to know each main character and what makes them tick You feel their actions said and unsaid You understand why they choose to do certain things for example why they hold back or why they give you just enough Another awesome thing was the secondary love story with Drew and Tierney I loved these two I would love to see Drew have his own book I adored his character Just thought I would throw that in to the universe to see what happens winkwinkFave Phrase Distractingly Pretty JoshFave Thing Unsaid 'I know at the moment what he has given me and it's not a chair It's an invitation a welcome the knowledge that I am accepted here He hasn't given me a place to sit He's given me a place to belong' NastyaFave Lines Because she's mine and I don't want you touching her JoshUnforgettable Lines You weren't suppose to kill me Nastya Why Resurrection? Drew Asks Because she died her mother says looking so much like sunshine that it unnerves me And she came back Other fave moments include wishing on pennies a garage antiue shopping and some non verbal communicationThis book is a MUST READ And I look forward to reading from this authorMy RatingsCharacters LovableWriting Style Excellent very solid and forth rightPlotStoryline Raw Intense Honest and CompellingSteam Factor Moderately SteamyOverall First Rate I LOVED IT A MUST READNow go forth and read Then come tell us about it on Goodreads


  10. says:

    So many glowing reviews for The Sea of Tranuility yet I DNFed at 50%Why? Because 1 Nastya is a twit2 Josh is a caricature3 Both sound virtually identical At a point I couldn't distinguish whose POV I just read Josh and Nastya were the same character IMO4 Why should I care about their class schedules or which teacher was an idiot or the high school angst? I mean who cares?5 Nastya is a twat and I felt zero empathy sympathy for her ordeal 6 Not enough plot I respect all the 5 star reviews but I simply don't get it